Ms. Fury
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no thank you in Each Day
The last week was pretty much dominated by starting my new job and dodging M’s mood throughout the week. And then the weekend arrived and we settled into our usual, happier, pattern. Happier bein...
Therapy to the rescue in Each Day
It was convenient that I had therapy the day after the conversation with Red. Tina helped me dig deeper into my experience of the situation and underlying issues. She showed me how my past trauma...
This Old Lady Body in Each Day
Oof. I’m back to the gym this week. Just trying to ignore the fucking headache I’ve had since yesterday morning. I’m so tired, and my sore legs make moving both difficult and painful. Wah. I woul...
friendship, effort, and perspective in Each Day
I wish I’d written this earlier, but it’s something that has been rattling around my brain since my last therapy session. We talked about how I lost myself during the pandemic, how I lost my soci...
finding words in Each Day
I’m so tired, haha. I said I was going to write more often, so here I am. I don’t know if anyone else is feeling this, but I really want to start Christmas early. And now that I’ve typed that, I...
I performed my first solo ritual tonight. I waited until after 7:38 so that the moon would be risen. The sky was cloudy, but I don’t need to see Her to know She’s there. While it feels deadly se...
It has been a while in Each Day
I meant to write. I’ve had a weird paralysis about writing. It started when I was home, I get annoyed always having to explain relationships assuming that a new reader is reading, I need to stop ...
I *actually never* expected this to happen. in Each Day
Wow… where to start… I guess because I don’t want to be click-baity and bury the lead, my mom, my sister and I had a genuine conversation where we talked about our history, aired some long held ...
Tonight was our weekly craft night, and it kind of started off on the wrong foot. One of the women, let’s call her Lilly, She has such a calm quiet energy and I don’t know why but it makes me fee...
What if I just *accepted myself*? in Each Day
This is a question my psychologist suggested I ponder. That was two weeks ago. I’ve thought about the task, but I keep getting stuck. Part of it is an excuse - but I want to change! But I believe...
I have thought a lot about unmasking in the last year. It started back in Wpg when I saw a series of “challenge” TikToks of people “unmasking”. To the untrained eye it legit just looked like some...
I have been thinking in Each Day
I feel like pieces of my insides are like a jenga set, but instead of taking order and making it chaos until it collapses, I feel like the opposite is happening. The chaos is becoming organized, ...
Well… I went to see the Barbie movie. I was originally torn about it, until the hype reached my peers, and I reconsidered the last 30 odd years of feeling bad for my Barbie loving past. I was a ...
a conversation in Each Day
After the session I texted my sister e: I wonder what it means when told by your therapist to think of a place of comfort and you think of your spouse and start to cry. And then immediately stop ...
l lost the real entry. You get this shit instead. in Each Day
I came here to write about my mood, my first EMDR session, and then get into birthday stuff… Instead, in trying to copy/paste a too-long excerpt I ended up somehow writing over the entire length...
It’s hard to keep everything front of mind, and not let this brain of mine run with the bullshit it makes up. I have been hyper emotional lately, and there’s a few good reasons for it, but instea...
I saw Tina again. I say Tina with a hint of disrespect, but it isn’t warranted, just my own stupid bias. I really would like to call her Dr. LastName, but she’s a hyphenate and that makes me craz...
Suurrrrveeeeyyy in Each Day
I stole this from Midorinokaeru aaaages ago, it’s been sitting in my drafts for a while. Answers were updated to today. I reserve the right to delete stupid fucking questions. Life Goal: Love as...
Personality in Each Day
I’ve been feeling quite low since the thunderstorm. It feels unnatural, uninstigated. There’s been a buzzing in my core that feels like anxiety, but I have no idea what I’m feeling anxious about....
irrational in Each Day
Many years ago, 2012 I think, I had an encounter in a gravel pit with a growling Rottweiler. I screamed bloody murder for help as it advanced on me. I was barefoot, with floppy summer shoes in ha...
brain dump in Each Day
As much as I have been seeking, I have been avoiding. The fact that I don’t write with any regularity tells me this is true. I have no excuse - I need no excuse - I’ve just been over here doing l...
So I’ve been on Guanfacine for about 2 weeks, and I think I notice some changes. First of all, I’m sleeping like the dead. I am a rare ADHDer who doesn’t have a co-morbid sleep disorder. I’ve sle...
never-ending in Each Day
My boss is a fucking gem. I swear every other interaction with him works to restore my hope for a career in this organization. Today he was talking to a coworker about their fucked up promotion/...
M has been discharged!!! I was not thinking it was going to happen, he had IV meds when I got there at 8. But after they kicked in he ate his breakfast unassisted, walked around the room, we had ...
comonnn discharge! in Each Day
I seriously doubt it will happen, but today was a much better day and the doc implied that M could leave tomorrow. There’s two stages that I think are confusing people in my previous entry. When...
